When it comes to relationships in the past, I always had trouble knowing when enough was enough. I'm not very good at letting go. I've never been broken up with, but just not having someone in your life the same way as they were before is hard. I always find myself messaging my ex, even though I am over him and want nothing to do with him in a physical way anymore. Why is it that I can't stop thinking about messaging him and getting him to forgive me? I guess I'm just a really sensitive person and I hate when people are upset with me. I dunno why, but I don't want to lose him completely. I want to always have him a part of my life, even if just a little bit, I know that's so selfish. I know it's only hurting him to talk to me and he needs his space. Why can't I take my own advice and stop it?

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-Brittany Brydahl

Oh maybe you just wanted some more attention from them. I don't think you're so over him already if you still wanna talk to him that just means you are still interested with him.

Maybe a part of me is, because I wonder what things could have been, but I know he's not right for me. He's nothing like me and he is okay with things that I never will be.

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-Brittany Brydahl

Well how'd you know that he's not meant for you if you still remember him all this time. Maybe you need to reflect more on what you really want so you will not be confused.

I've thought about what I want a lot and when I think about what I want, I always know it's not him and then I stop thinking about him lol. It's just that I've dealt with a lot of loss in my life (moving, and leaving people behind) and so I don't do well with change. I always try so hard to keep the people who are living near me as close as I can. However, with him, it just wouldn't be healthy. It's only been three months since we broke up and everything happened so fast, so I think I'm still in the transition faze. Just writing about it here has helped me quite a bit. He was always rude to me and ignored me and that's not what I want.

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-Brittany Brydahl

Maybe you're the type of person who just wants to have someone in your life? There are a lot of people like that, so it's not strange. It's very natural to crave companionship.

You mentioned that you want him to forgive you - has he, or is he still holding grudges? Perhaps that is the reason you keep trying: he won't "release" you, so to speak, by clearly saying that he has no hard feelings.